My qualms with photography
And I started thinking: if a moment or situation is so valuable that it deserves to be photographed, then, perhaps, it is more valuable to just experience it. And I don’t use the word ‘just’ as an expression of frivolity, just the opposite: it is the key for extracting the golden reality from the mine of perceived reality. All events, situations, ups, downs and all-arounds just ‘are’, regardless of the extraneous values we assign to them. Sometimes, I feel as though I am trying too hard to capture something that would be better served by a living memory than by a vibrant 8x10 print.
Outside of ‘working’ as a photographer, I started feeling like photography was invading my entire persona. I became possessed by the camera: instead of seeing the environment around me, all I saw were potential pictures and lost opportunities. Outside of shooting stories—a time during which I always developed extraordinary closeness with my subjects—I became separated from the world around me by a constant drive to make everyone and everything into a good subject. And for what? I realized that I couldn’t capture it, I couldn’t keep any given moment any longer than it existed no matter how many frames I shot. When the moment is gone, it’s gone forever. According to Eckhart Tolle, an acclaimed contemporary spiritual teacher and author of The Power of Now, the attempt to stop time and keep for the future a moment that had happened in the past borders insanity.
Then, once the ‘moments’ have been ‘captured,’ the photographer is faced with the impossible task of determining which single photo is the most precise and fair portrayal of what ‘actually’ transpired. For me, the inherent and tragic reality is that behind the camera, I was missing everything that didn’t fall within the borders of my viewfinder. I was capturing a fraction without experiencing the whole. I based my memories on a specious portrayal rather than what really was. It’s like the story my parents used to tell me about how when I was two years old I would sit in the cabinet in our old kitchen and play with potatoes. I have heard this story so many times that I don’t know if I actually remember the event or if the repeated retelling of the story generated a fake memory.
I don’t mean to offend any photographers. I believe that the work of a photographer is priceless and terribly important. After all, no books, articles, or first-hand accounts can replace the saturation of meaning carried by a single photograph. John Kaplan’s portrait series of torture victims from the civil war in
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